I think I’ve written before about my fear of falling. It absolutely terrifies me, because I don’t have the ability to put my hands out and catch myself before I hit the ground. My cerebral palsy prevents those signals from being transmitted from my brain to my limbs. The best way I can think to describe the fear is that it feels like being in the ocean, with no way to come up for air. It’s that intense. It’s that scary.
I think part of the problem is that I can’t get up off the floor by myself. It’s something I’m working on learning how to do, but right now, I’m not strong enough to get up on my hands and knees and then pull myself up using my walker. That’s part of the source of the fear, because all I can picture is falling when I’m alone and hitting my head and then being stuck on the floor for hours because I can’t reach a phone.
Whenever that fear starts to overtake me, I lean on the words of Psalm 46:5: God is within her, she will not fall. I lean on those words, and I picture Jesus standing next to me with His arms outstretched, ready to catch me if I fall. My faith is my life vest when I feel like I’m drowning. Jesus brings me comfort, He gives me strength, and He gives me the courage I need to do whatever task it is I’m trying to accomplish.
What verse do you lean on when you’re afraid?