Cerebral Palsy · Faith

God is Within Her

“God is within her, she will not fall.”
-Psalm 46:5, NIV

I think I’ve written before about my fear of falling. It absolutely terrifies me, because I don’t have the ability to put my hands out and catch myself before I hit the ground. My cerebral palsy prevents those signals from being transmitted from my brain to my limbs. The best way I can think to describe the fear is that it feels like being in the ocean, with no way to come up for air. It’s that intense. It’s that scary.

I think part of the problem is that I can’t get up off the floor by myself. It’s something I’m working on learning how to do, but right now, I’m not strong enough to get up on my hands and knees and then pull myself up using my walker. That’s part of the source of the fear, because all I can picture is falling when I’m alone and hitting my head and then being stuck on the floor for hours because I can’t reach a phone.

Whenever that fear starts to overtake me, I lean on the words of Psalm 46:5: God is within her, she will not fall. I lean on those words, and I picture Jesus standing next to me with His arms outstretched, ready to catch me if I fall. My faith is my life vest when I feel like I’m drowning. Jesus brings me comfort, He gives me strength, and He gives me the courage I need to do whatever task it is I’m trying to accomplish.

What verse do you lean on when you’re afraid?


13 thoughts on “God is Within Her

  1. I can relate to that feeling – the fear of falling. I do have strength in my arms but I need to walk wearing leg braces and crutches because of paraplegia. And since I can’t bend my legs at my knees if I fall, I am terrified at the prospect of falling and hurting myself bad and make my situation worse and trouble those around me worse. That’s such a sapping fear, that the limited times I go out of the house I prefer a wheelchair over braces/crutches. I can live with that but when I hear your account with CP I feel bad that I am resisting something because of fear when what I should be doing is to trust Him. I do need greater faith in that aspect of my life. Thank you for sharing this post, it is truly a blessing. God bless you.

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    1. Hi Ramos!! You just made my day. I can’t thank you enough for your comment, because you made me feel like I’m not alone. Thank you so, so much for that. When I was reading this, all I could think about was how strong and amazing you must be! I’m trying to learn to walk with crutches, too. It’s a work in progress, but I’m getting there! Please don’t feel bad about anything! It took me a long time to be able to hand my fears over to Him. I always think about His arms out, ready to catch me if I fall, and that helps me. 🙂 God bless you, Ramos. You are incredible and if you ever need anything at all, let me know! Sending you a huge hug!!

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      1. Oh Robyn, I must say that I felt just the same. I’ve never shared that fear with many. Even when I do, I’ve never quite felt like they understood. And here I am reading your words describe it to perfection ☺ We are truly never alone.. * hugs * I’m glad for you that you’re progressing with the elbow crutches. If you can manage with the walker then I’m sure that with your faith and perseverance you will be walking with crutches before you know it. I pray that God will give you the strength. Don’t you worry my friend, I do not feel bad for anything in my life. I am where I am because God believes it right for me. And He is good, all the time. What your words did though is motivate me to show better faith in that absolutely good God the next time I face such an obstacle 😁 Thank you so much once again, Robyn. BTW do you pray for a miracle..?

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      2. Exactly!! No one understands just how intense and real it is! No, we’re not!! 😊 Thank you so, so much! That means so much to me! You’re exactly right, and He loves you so much more than you know!! He has you in the palm of His Hand! So blessed He used me to give you encouragement and motivation! 😊 no, I never have. I’ve just always prayed for His help in overcoming my CP and His strength. Do you?

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  2. Absolutely 😊 That’s awesome Robyn. Yes I do pray for a miracle from Him. Not that I do not believe He can work in me through my paraplegic state. Of course He can if that is His will. But I know that He can heal too if He so desires, so I do pray for His healing as I do for His strength till that day. One day anyways we will all be healed, so I can be sure that this prayer is going to be answered one way or another, according to His will 😄 Healing or no healing, I will magnify the Lord….

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